Thursday, November 15, 2007

Without time can you be timeless?

Matthew Broderick said it best in the 80's teen classic Ferris Buellers day off,
" Life moves by pretty fast.... if your not careful it will pass you by"
At times I feel like a robot without oil, or a conquistador without a compass...
This very dramatic and doubtfully poetic rant is how i begin my life as a blogger,
as the 21st century crashes in to me i meet it head on with no regard for my safety
No seat belt, I’m too cool for the safe belt, and far to practical for side airbags...
My day started today as it usually does i made it to work on time by the skin of my teeth
with caffeine provoked alertness i energetically high fived and head nodded students as i carried my bones through the hallowed halls of my high school in North Philly, trying to amp myself up like a gladiator entering the coliseum.
I sat down at my desk said hello to my fellow teachers and stared at Amelians picture on my computer screen...
It must have been about 10 seconds into my staring contest with Amelians picture that i realized "crap i am at work"
Pulling myself away i noticed the stack of papers that lined my desk as if a blizzard of dead trees had just come down on my work space and i swore the weather men had called for sunshine.. My day went much the same, as my morning, i felt distant, sluggish, like i had never talked to anyone in my life.. My words came out as if English was my second language....
My existence at work felt as awkward as a first kiss, but then in the midst of feeling overwhelmed i did the outlandish, i did the extreme... i prayed.... For me lately this has felt like a radical thing to do because i have been running around chasing hours that feel like seconds... It was only about a minute of silence, but in that silence i was saved from being so egocentric.... When i opened my eyes and looked around at my classroom i was sucker punched by a startling fact... I am incredibly blessed.. I stared at my computer screen and saw the smiling face of a beautiful girl who thinks that i am the cats meow... And who i am in constant awe of her beauty both inside and out.... i gazed at pictures and artwork of students i had taught and it all made sense... "Time moves pretty fast if your not careful it will pass you by" My fellow skeletons i call you all to silence... In all the static we can find clarity if we can just quiet ourselves through the noise that pollutes our peace.... Here is were i must retire my syllables witha kool aid smile.... and count my blessings like P Diddy counts Benjamins...

1 comment:

Amelian Kashiro said...

I love your first post, I look forward to reading more. The rest of the world will get a chance to see how intellegent and articulate you are. I love you!