Today felt like a jigsaw puzzle in which the pieces fought to fit in their respective position.... Last night i sent Amelian pictures from our holiday together..I looked at each snapshot like a car crash, with grinding teeth and steady eyes i stared at each smile, in aww of this time that feels like a unfamilar history, that still stinging....With the pictures i composed a short email..Sluggish syllables filled the computer screen as my fingers awkwardly danced with the keyboard...Everything i wrote felt so distant, so blahh...As i cross examined the email like a lawyer over and over I questioned its motives and hoped that when Amelians eyes stumbled upon them that she would understand that these awkward words are not mine but someone elses.. Someone in need of grace.. Like a band aid ripped off prematurely i need more time to heal........They say that the first step to recovery is admitting that you have a problem....
i admit..........
No comments:
Post a Comment