typing without a backspace...

where do i begin... tonight O and I bartended at Mad river and made way more money than necessary for pouring people drinks and putting up with drunken conversation... so i came home and decided that i would check out Amelians blog becasue it feels like forever since she has posted a new tidbit for me to read...... only to find that indeed my email was awkward and senseless, and that grace is something that i can hope for and cling to but never really feel... right now i feel like a one legged man in an ass kicking contest...Destined to fail.....Falling asleep right now is hard because i kind of hate myself............great....... just 4 more hours till i will be educating young minds..... i think this weekend i am going to crawl into a hole... God bless the internet and self loathing and typing without a backspace.......